Bad things happen guy was RE: [geeks] New guitar.

[Chris Byrne]

True enough, but most engineers would stop short at homicide (it's not
murder if it's justified, it's still homicide).

Personally I believe that someone who violates my, or anyone else's eights
to life liberty and the pursuit of happiness has given up those rights
themselves and is no longer entitled to the consideration you would give a
human life. I would not necessarily go out of my way to kill them, however I
would feel no compunction about doing so. No guilt, no remorse nothing like
that. I would feel sorry that it was necessary, and I would be irritated at
the waste of potential they had, as well as the expenditure of effort on my
part required to kill them but that's it. I would also of course be worried
about possible retribution or legal problems.

I would (and have) go VERY far out of my way to deal with a rapist, abuser,
or someone who hurt me or mine. As I said, they deserve whatever they get
and cops are useless at that bit. Don't get me wrong I like cops, and I
support competent and well meaning police everywhere, it's just that
criminal justice is one of the most heinous oxymoron's in history.

Anyway that's beside the point. The full diagnosis was that I was a
"dissociative sociopath". I have the ability to dissociate myself from all
emotion at will. No guilt, no remorse, no anger, no pain, no love, nothing.
Like a light switch. It's a very useful thing actually. It's the only way I
was able to survive a lot of what I went through and still function. My
brother went through most of the same stuff and he became an angry violent
drug abuser and alcoholic.

I DO have a conscience, I can just choose to have it not bother me ;-) Or
have nothing bother me. I call it going robot. Normally I'm a talkative and
animated guy, very active, gesturing all the time and very expressive
especially with my eyes. If you are ever around me and my eyes go dead flat,
I become quiet and start speaking in a monotone it's time to leave cuz
something bad is about to happen.

I don't get mad. Ever. I sometimes get irritated or pissed and I'll even
raise my voice (rarely) but I never get mad. If something makes me angry
enough for that I simply shut off and deal with whatever it is then go on my
way.


Chris Byrne





> -----Original Message-----
> From: geeks-admin at sunhelp.org [mailto:geeks-admin at sunhelp.org]On Behalf
> Of alex j avriette
> Sent: 15 April 2002 21:30
> To: geeks at sunhelp.org
> Subject: Re: Bad things happen guy was RE: [geeks] New guitar.
>
>
> > I've been diagnosed as a sociopath by more than one psycho-babbler. I am
>
> my mother (clinical psychologist) diagnosed me as a sociopath.
>
> > mission oriented. I have a mission, I will accomplish that mission.
> > Things
> > that interfere with that mission must be evaluated and either dealt
> > with,
> > removed, worked around, or resolved in as efficient and quick a way as
> > possible. Sometimes those things are people. Oh well.
>
> personally, i think thats nothing unusual. we call that mindset "an
> engineer."
>
> alex
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